My Life so far

I have always been like this...

Always thinking what is going on with my life, 

I never felt like all of this things that is happening around me is actually 

happening for real. 

I have enjoyed being a kid, a teenager, soon to be a grown woman. 

I'm just trying to understand who I was and who I am 

But I am changing just the same 

So can you tell me who's to blame? 

I'm just trying to figure it out.

now pride is out the door' cause I know I can make it before 

make it before the sun breaks another day 

I think you'll have to wait until I say enough said.

I don't remember when i crossed the line, 

between ultimate freedom and loosing life's time.
Now every day is a panic with missions to complete
I'm getting closer and closer to admitting defeat
Childhood living in a field of dreams
not even knowing what life even means.



How did my life have to end up like this?